crisis

Ok,  I'm good at being a little over-dramatic so maybe "crisis" isn't the best word to use. I feel like I'm at a career crossroads and I'm not quite sure what I want. I go through this every couple of years where I have a mental breakdown and can't see out. I think my world is crashing down and coming to an end just because I feel like I'm not doing anything with my life. However, after talking to Anthony and my mom, I realized (once again) that I actually have to DO something if I want my life to change. So I'm going to talk to boss lady about taking on more responsibility. I just feel so useless there. Plus there are other things going on but I don't want to go into it on the internets. I'm really hoping I can get things to turn around quickly.



I've been off my anti-depressants for only one week, just because I'm a lazy skank and didn't get my ass to Walgreen's. Well turns out, I can't even be off them for a week. I'm sure that being off my meds didn't help the crisis situation today. I picked them up after the gym tonight so I hope they kick in quickly because I don't know how much more of this I can take...or how much Anthony can take!


As far as the gym goes, I saw Antonio today and we did shoulders and chest. My arms hurt...can barely hold my toothbrush! I've been drinking a shit ton of water though so I'm hoping I won't be too sore tomorrow. Then I did 2 miles on the elliptical. Felt good...just me, Dave Matthews in my ear and sweat everywhere. YES! Tomorrow, just cardio then I have another appt with Antonio on Friday. Pretty full schedule these days!