The gym was straight up hurtful today. We did core for only the second time. The first time, I was sore for 2 entire weeks. TWO WEEKS! Christ, it was brutal. I have to lay on the mat and do those leg kick/scissor kick thingies....ohhhh boy, horrrrrible. I'll be dying tomorrow, no bigs. Then I tried to do the treadmill but I have stupid blisters on the balls of my feet from wearing my awesome boots all weekend long and then again last night. Why do cute shoes have hate me so much?
I was really bad in the eating department today. Anthony and I went out to dinner and that part wasn't so bad, but afterward, he "surprised" me by taking me to Dairy Queen. If there's one thing I can't say no to, it's a peanut buster parfait. Ugh, it was so great at the time but I feel like shit now. It's so hard to remember the after-feeling when I'm in the middle of ice cream dreamland.
I'm going to struggle with food issues for the rest of my life. I was reading an article in some fitness goddess magazine and it was talking about seeing food as fuel. Wha?!? This is a completely foreign concept to me. (Much like the rest of this road I'm on.) I have never understood the nutritional values of food or what a calorie is. I've always eaten because I looooove to eat. I love food. I love fatty food, fried food, sweet food...anything and everything that's bad for me. I don't quite understand the consequences of eating badly. I don't think when I eat, I just eat and I enjoy. It's incredibly frustrating to turn a leisure activity into an activity that requires effort. (We all know how much I loooove effort!)
One of my best friends, Melanie loves healthy food and I wish I could be more like her. One time she said to me, "You know what I'm really craving right now?" (I'm thinking, pizza, a brownie, cupcake....nooooo.) Instead, she says, "A big huge head of lettuce!" A WHAT?!?! Have you lost your damn mind? A head of friggin' lettuce. I would really love to crave a head of lettuce some day.
Anyway, onward and upward. Tomorrow's a new day. (Jeez, I say that a lot don't I?)
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I'm glad I'm not the only one with food issues! I think it runs in our family. Nothing better than ice cream for dinner! Have you tried keeping a food diary?
By the way, you do look thinner in the new pictures. The hard work is paying off. Dacia
Dacia--I have food issues on both sides. Gramma Dona's never had a healthy relationship with food. And the Poppoff side is all a bunch of fat fatties, yay! Double whammy!! But really, I can't use that as an excuse...I have to defy the genetics. Thanks for saying I look thinner! I'm not seeing it yet, but I appreciate when other people do! :)
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