bittersweet

Yesterday was equally awesome and horrible all in one day. Matt and Amber were in town kinda. They came over so Matt could go skiing at Baker. So I met Bams and her mama for lunch at Tokyo Japanese Steakhouse here in Federal Way. Anthony has been begging me to go there for the longest time, but the words "japanese" and "steakhouse" don't appeal to me in the least bit. But Bams says it's one of her faves and I trust her tastebuds so I went. OMG, it was SO GOOD! I've never had shrimp that delicious in my life. It was really fun too because they cook your food right in front of you and the chef puts on a little show. Usually, I'm not into that kind of cooking because I feel like the food won't be very good if they have to distract people with showy crap. But it was wonderful! Can't wait to go back.

After lunch, I went home and played with Bella all day. We played with her toys, took naps, and cuddled non-stop. I was going to meet Bams in Kent at 7pm so she could take her back to Yakima. I knew I would be bummed and miss Bella, but it was baaaaaad. I was so sad. I cried for about an hour before we left. Bella saw me crying so she hopped in my lap and licked my face, which only made me cry more. Ugh! Then I drove as slow as humanly possible to meet up with Amber. We said goodbye and then there was more crying for me on the way home. Anthony was in Tacoma all day playing with his remote control cars (don't ask!) so I didn't get to talk to him until about 10pm. As soon as he called, I started bawling all over again....I could barely talk to him. It was really bad. I haven't felt that sad since our family dog, Ratdog died about 4 years ago. It's completely ridiculous because I know she's going to have so much fun with her family over there. My parents spoil her as much as we do and she loooooves playing with her cousin Rokko so she'll have a blast. I'm just a highly emotional person. It'll be much better when we get to Hawaii and we're not in this empty house thinking about how something's missing. Get me on that plane!!

I didn't go to the gym because I wanted to spend every last second with Bella. People probably think I'm ridiculous to be that attached to a dog. But I'm not going to have kids, so Bella is my kid. And I think moms feel the same when they leave their baby with someone for awhile. I know it's weird to compare my dog to an actual human baby, but that's how I feel and it's the closest I'll get to having a kid so that's why I love her so much.

Going to the gym today. It's gonna feel good to sweat.

Laser eyes Bella before we left to meet Bams.