tomorrow

I'm starting my personal trainer tomorrow. And I just had some pizza. It feels good to know that I'll be working that off tomorrow. I'm definitely nervous, a little excited and really scared.

I'm nervous because I hate starting new things and I'm sooooo not good with change. Excited because I'm so ready to change my life and become a genuinely happy person. Scared because I really don't want to fail. I just want to kick ass and be awesome. That sounds so vague but I have a very specific definition in my head of what those two things mean. Think I could actually get them out and write them down? Nope, but I know and that's what matters to me.

GOALS
1) weight 125-130
2) size 8-10
3) be able to bring laundry up the stairs
4) sleep better
5) reduce the frequency and intensity of migraines
6) BE HAPPY

This weekend in Chelan, I had an awesome conversation about the importance of my mental health and I came to realize that I'm not the only one in the world with a chemical imbalance and I definitely have a friend on my side who's been there times 10. So along with my physical health, I'm going to get my mental status where I want it to be. That means having to take anti-depressants without insurance. Kind of a bummer, however it's a small price to pay for the imbalances I experience and that Anthony has to experience too.

The life-changing starts tomorrow, so wish me luck!