fat is bad

We're told from a young age that "fat" is a bad word. It's offensive and degrading. We call people "heavy" or "big". Even the word "obese" has softened. Remember those commercials with Carnie Wilson talking about how she had gastric bypass because her doctor told her she's morbidly obese? Back then, that would be a horrible diagnosis but the words have lost all meaning that they no longer scare people. I had to look in the mirror and tell myself, "you are FAT" to get myself to the gym. For the past year, I've been saying that I just got a little heavy after meeting Anthony. It's the boyfriend layer...happens to everyone! It took me actually saying the word "fat" to get through to myself. 

I'm not saying that everyone should be calling people fat, but maybe if that word was actually said then people would wake up and do something about it. So I'm saying it "FAT FAT FAT FATTIE!!" Ah, that feels good!

Today was a good day. I worked really hard at the gym (even though I really didn't want to go.) And I ate really well too. I discovered Taco Bell Fresco Style...it's so delish! Basically, they take out all the dairy and replace it with salsa. I love it!

Tomorrow I see Antonio, then I see him again on Friday. I'm actually looking forward to it. Last week, I pushed myself so far beyond what I've ever done. Can't wait to do it again!